There is nothing in this world that can hide the fact...

CONVERSATION
.: RECENT.
> Hey, guys.
Sorry I was gone so long. My cousin in his girlfriend got kicked out of their apartment and moved back into our computer room, and even when I've had the chance, I just... things have been awful. Just when things were looking up for me. My social life is crumbling, I have only one true, pure friend that I know I can trust with anything, and yesterday the dog I've known for as long as I can remember died.

I'll start with the friend thing, I guess. So those friends of mine in real life, like Kat or Maggie, don't get offended. I do love you guys as friends, or even sisters, but you guys are drifting. Maggie, you only care about Jeffrey anymore because you finally discovereed the power of true teen hormones. It's great you're happy, I guess, but it's going to end eventually. It is extremely unlikely you'll stay together, especially with such a hormonal attachment VS. an emotional one. Sorry, I sorta/kinda, don't really hope it works. I hope you find someone better for you that isn't an asshole to yours friends and accually respects you and not just the idea of having a girlfriend.

Kat... I don't know why the hell you're drifting. You still talk to me like normal when you see me, but it's excuse after excuse any time I try to see you away from school. I don't need a part-time friend. I need someone I can talk to and count on, especially after putting up with their bullshit for 9 years. Sorry, but you're very high energy and I'm very... not, unless I'm slap happy or something. It's great you make yourself be so happy, but you're very... rude... and forgetful... and tend to not care about things that don't effect you.

As for my other friends, they're all self-absorbed or obsessed with their other friends or boyfriends/girlfriends. And it's very annoying. I get left out all the time, and it's very uncomfortable, awkward, and depressing. We all used to be so close. Now half of you hate eachother and I have no idea where I stand. What the hell happened?


Moving on to Goldy, my dog...
She was... sick. She started throwing up about a week ago, but we thought she got better after a couple days. Then yesterday she started throwing up again and got really weak. She couldn't hardly stand on her own and she was walking with what seemed like a multiple limp according to my grandparents (I was at school). They took her to the vet and he said there was nothing they could do. She was old, and her body was failing her, after seeming to be doing pretty well for so long. So she had to be put down. They convinced the vet to let them bring her home and built her a coffin, then dug a hole in the backyard where I always used to sit with her under 3 tall pines nears the woods.

I had no idea about any of this until I got home from school after 4, when she died in the morning. They waited for me and Logan to get home and see her coffin before they buried her. I couldn't stay to watch, though. I left when Brandon and Stanley came down and started softening the dirt. But today I took the pups down and sat by her grave for almost 40 minutes. I think I'm going to visit every day. And Amber's coming over this weekend to help decorate her grave, maybe make a marker and lay some flowers. Come spring I'm going to plant some there. But there's not too much I can do but lay picked flowers until the cold weather goes.

I'm going to make her as she was, showing her regularly in my artwork. I've drawn her plenty of times before on paper, but I don't think any of them got scanned before I lost the power cord to my printer-scanner. I'm going to make a ref and everything, and keep drawing her as long as I'm able to draw, along with all my other characters. Most of them are based on, are, or were inspired by accual people and animals anyway. But of course she'll be one of the most important, because I grew up with her, and she was like a sister and a best friend to me for 14 years. I don't know what I'm going to do without her.


> Sorry for no comments, only replies. I have nearly 600 things to shuffle through in all.


> That's it. I don't want to talk about anything else.


.: IMPORTANT NEWS.
> Please read: Between or after my trades and stuff I'm making gift art for some people. Friends mostly, but also of OCs I might find interesting enough to draw that may not belong to friends, but aquaintances. I'm going to try to make something for almost all the people on my friend's list. Sorry not all, but I don't talk to them all that much, and some have abandoned their accounts so they don't get one. Anyways...

Underline - Pending
Italics - Working on now
Bold - Done and Posted
Nothing - Don't know what I'm drawing yet

Planning/Waiting for comment
Levy
Toubi-chan
Rajakro
Demon Brothers
Akumu's Twins Started, but I accidentally saved the WIP as a JPEG, so I have to start over
Planning/Waiting for comment
Silver

Please comment letting me know what you want, unless you don't want anything specific. If you don't comment, I'll note you and ask... if I remember. If you don't care or want to be surprised, just let me know.

> TRADES, ROLEPLAY, COLLABS and REQUESTS OPEN. Now note me please~ 8D
I've been getting a lot more attention lately. A lot of people asking for trades and requests. Makes me happy. But I'd like to do more to keep me going. The more I have the faster I get it all done to try and keep up!

> POLL UPDATE: I tallied up the score from notes and comments and it looks like FMA won! I'll start gathering images and song ideas ASAP.

- More Wolf's Rain { 4 votes }
- More BLEACH { 4 votes }
- FMA (since I never got to post my original) { 7 votes }
- Death Note { 2 votes }
- Naruto { 3 votes }
- Other (please specify) { look below for count }
- Pokemon (requested) { 2 votes }


100 THEME CHALLENGE
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WHERE ELSE AM I?
> Storm-Artists as wolfsraincarman.
Status: Uhh... yeah. Forgot about it until I just read over this now. Oops.

> Neopets as wolfsraincarman.
Status: Been there over 4yrs. Go there to talk, mess around when I'm bored and tend to unintentionally use it to avoid work. Advertises my work. Lately I've accually been playing it, though. I forgot how obseesive those games are... and now they have flashy 'make your pets pretty dress them up and give them toys and shit that MOOOVES! 8D' And I fell for it. I may or may not get over it. Who knows. It's entertainment.

> Gaia Online as Carman the Toraikage.
Status: I hardly get on anymore so I wouldn't waste your time.

> Wajas as 62917 (Carman).
Status: Usually on regularly. It's amusing.

> Khimeros as Carman.
Status: Active, checking it out. It's a new site that's still in the works, but I think it looks promising. It's simliar to Wajas, but I think it'll be better. I need to go see if it's ready to be completely up and running next time I get the chance.

> Wolf Quest as Wolfsraincarman.
Status: Active. This game is amazing! You play as a wolf in Yellowstone National Park. You can hunt, kill chase coyotes and bears... get killed by bears. There's elk to hunt and they act like they would in the wild. Run, then fight when they can't get away. It's pretty cool. And you can play with your friends, show off art and talk about whatever on the forums. And it's FREE! Yay free.

Waiting for the next episode (to raise/train pups and claim territory etc.).

> YouTube as CarmanMarieMustang.
Status: Very active. On every time I get on.

> There's more. I'm trying to figure them all out.


GOOD FRIENDS ON DEVART



CLUBS I'M IN



GOOD DEVS NEED SUPPORT



FOR ALL THOSE WHO FAVE
I don't know how others feel about it, but a fave is a compliment to me. Maybe later when I have more watchers I'll be bigger on comments, but for now, faving is just fine. I love comments, but I understand people don't have time to comment on everything. I'm one of those people. So I want to thank you all anyway, just in case I don't have time later to thank you personally on your profile.




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